Our guest today is Charlene. To call her a darling would be putting it mildly. She has a big heart for people (perhaps it’s why she works in the NGO world and as a peace and reconciliation expert) and I call her and her sister (she’s a fraternal twin) good for my heart. This is because with Char, there’s no such thing as overcomplementing.
Her mouth is a scepter and she can crown you with love on your worst day so a few minutes with her will be good for your soul. I guess this is why I always look forward to moments with her. Because she’s real. Unapologetically so. I know she’s going to do great things for God and this world because with a heart that big, eternity sways with your heartbeat.
Also, as an fyi, Charlene is the lady I was talking about in this post. Yes. She’s the one who said those words that set my world on a new course. You know, that God picks her first? Yeah. Perhaps one day I’ll share just how deep those words imprinted on me and changed the trajectory of my life.
She’s golden, this one. There’s never anything casual when she speaks and I love the easy weight of her words and company.
I know you will too, so enjoy!
“I have great respect for the past. If you don’t know where you’ve come from, you don’t know where you’re going. I have respect for the past, but I’m a person of the moment. I’m here, and I do my best to be completely centered at the place I’m at, then I go forward to the next place.”
– Maya Angelou
A month ago, a conversation I had with God set my past, present and future into perspective. I told Him, “You always pick me first.” In retrospect I understood back then that my life was always about me being behind on something. Flashbacks of always being picked last for a round of ‘Kati’ with my friends because I was chubby and thus couldn’t be as swift at dodging the ball, instances of my lunchtime being cut short to attend remedial classes because of my bad grades in Math and my terrible handwriting back in primary school, and the mother of all the memories is being beaten all through pre-unit because I was left handed. I feared teachers and the classroom from then onwards. I believed I was wrong before I could be right.
The foundation of my personality was set because of the backdrop of my childhood memories in school. I was timid, apprehensive, and I pretty much had no self-esteem. My high school years were similar yet looking back it was very unique in that I still did poorly in school but most of my friends who did pretty well in their studies came to me seeking a listening ear, comfort and advice. I wondered why because I felt like sinking sand, yet I looked like a fortress to some.
Fast forward to about seven years ago, I gave my life to Christ and I started to hear Him, through His word, experiences, dreams, and people.
I remember getting home from an educational school trip with my university, I wasn’t sure how I was going to get home, because my mum at that time was at work. It must have been one o’clock in the afternoon, I was among the few left who hadn’t been picked up by their parents. I remember distinctively noticing that my friend’s parents were being picked up by their fathers and the rest of their families, but distinctively that their fathers showed up.
I did the obvious, I let my head hung low and I pitied myself and within a moment I heard God say, “Hey! Wasn’t I with you the whole time? Even now, I’m here.” And I kid you not, in just a few minutes my mum’s colleague showed up and pulled up in a cab right beside me. I needed my Father like each one of my friends did on that day, and without fail, He showed up. It just matters how you see Him every day.
As time passed, I started to realize that I was getting picked a lot to lead on a few roles and responsibilities in church. I didn’t know why but looking back now, it was because of who I was inside.
A new revelation that I gained this week about myself is that I show myself to be, even before I know I can.
Sounds interesting right?
But it’s true. God uses that about me to pick me for service. Yes – I procrastinate, I get very timid, I don’t feel like being strong, but God chooses the vessel regardless. It’s more about partnership than what makes one unqualified.
Remember earlier about me saying that back then I was wrong before I could be right? And now gradually my heart volunteers itself to be and become even before I know I can. If that’s not God at work, I don’t know what is!
I realize that God wants more for you, more than you have, more than you want and will ever think about for yourself. Look back, look now and look ahead of yourself. You may just notice that even in some of the foggiest of situations, God picked you to position you for your destiny. Sometimes, you will complain, you will detest it, you will want out.
But look again.
This is all from me at the moment. I can sit and tell you more about what God has rewritten in my life, but I would have to buy you a cup of tea for that.
This is me signing off.
Charlene Wanjiku Mutune
Well Char, that coffee sounds real good right now! Show yourself to be even before you can. So profound. I guess sometimes you’ve got to believe you’re the noun then do the verb. Feels like reverse but God works from the end then backtracks to the beginning. That’s sinking in for me.
Thank you so much for sharing your words Char ❤
I sincerely hope you’ll come again.
My name is Charlene Wanjiku Mutune. I’m 24 years of age and I am passionate about social impact particularly on matters of the youth and their education.
I also love watching interviews of people’s life stories and I love to initiate the same as well. I enjoy facilitating and leading Bible based fellowships and I believe I am a great encourager and mobilizer in matters of life and wellbeing.