What I Need

Humble beginnings – who wants them?

I can bet you a pretty sum that if you raise that question in a room, no hands will shoot up. Not even yours.

Small beginnings don’t come with all the bells and whistles. There are no trumpets, no confetti (and it’s not because it’s not in the budget) and no cheers every step of the way.

I used to (and still struggle to) celebrate the beauty of small beginnings. In fact, this has been my kryptonite, Achilles heel, thorn in the flesh and what have you. I’m a wilderness girl, don’t get me wrong, but I like abundance too.

Somewhere in all this some years back, I remember reading these words by Emily on Holly Gerth’s website.

A few years later, quite recently, the song Seasons by Hillsong brought it back to mind.

In a few words…

Oh how nature acquaints us with the nature of patience. Though the winter is long even richer the harvest it brings. Though my waiting prolongs even greater Your promise for me like a seed. I believe that my season will come. If all I know of harvest is that it’s worth my patience, then if You’re not done working, God I’m not done waiting.

You can see my promise. Even in the winter. Cause You’re the God of greatness even in a manger. For all I know of seasons is that You take Your time. You could have saved us in a second instead You sent a child.

God could have saved us in a second but He took His time. He started where we do, as a baby. I remember when it hit me that Jesus had to learn how to walk, how to talk, how to do carpentry and the likes. He didn’t take shortcuts because He is God.

Talk about starting from the bottom!

And that’s where I am. If God can choose to begin again so He can win my heart, then there’s something powerful about the bigness of small (RIP English. Lol) and the purpose of time. I’ve come to respect time lately. It truly is precious.

In addition, I need to add patience to my faith. I guess it’s never been that I’m faithless. It’s just I need an indefinite hourglass or better yet, to borrow God’s timer.

So this is my prayer for this new (but oh so same) season:

I’ve got to be in it (whatever God has me building with Him) for the long term because that’s how long it’ll take.


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